WHY WEDNESDAY!

that's right kids it's

WHY WEDNESDAY!

Cute clothes

I feel like I don't really have a style yet. I wear whatever fits or whatever comes along. I'm excited to donate all my clothes and find myself a cute style AND look good doing it!

and that was WHY WEDNESDAY!

sleeping woes

No loss no gain. kind of a bummer, but I am pretty sure I know why. Hopefully this week I can make up for it.


This past week I have had trouble with that whole sleeping thing. I'm always tired no matter how much sleep I get. :( I have been struggling with waking up pretty much as long as I can remember. I have this one memory of being woken up for school when I was in like 1st or 2nd grade, and I fell asleep in front of my closet, and my mom left me there and took everyone else to school. I woke up and she was gone! It was more dramatic then how it sounds! As I am writing this it doesn't seem that bad, but I was traumatized. And then all through high school my sister Mandy had the pleasure of waking me up everyday. To this day, it makes me grouchy if I am not woken up correctly because she used to wake me up in a very angry way lol. Anyhoo.... it's a problem. I stay awake all through the night sometimes because I am afraid I will miss something the next day if it's early in the morning and that makes me exhausted, and then the day after that I sleep for like 20 hours. As my mom says I have my days and nights mixed up.  My doctor put me on this sleep hygiene stuff but I think I need to look into some kind of meds, just to get me in the rhythm.

(awww! Mandy on the left and Me on the right)

VISUAL FRIDAY

I have lost 8 pounds, about the same size as a new born baby!

This is me semi-newborn! It's kinda fun to get a visual of what 8 pounds is. Sometimes it doesn't feel like a lot but when I think of it this way, it makes me feel great about it! woo hoo for me and let's keep it coming

WHY WEDNESDAY!

Because these three are getting blunt. 

And Nathan said he will still love me when I am skinny. But not if I cut my hair. Priorities. 

and that was WHY WEDNESDAY!

Snails Pace

So I dropped another two pounds, which bring my total to -8 and my weight at 230...sigh. While that's all good and swell,* I'm not feelin it. What I mean is, I thought with all these pills I'm taking (especially the thyroid meds) I would see a bigger drop. I'm not talking -10. I just thought maybe a -5 or -3 even. But here I am on this steady slope** kinda chugging along. v e r y   s  l  o w  l  y. sigh.  

BUT! Something awesome has started to happen! My body is getting used to eating  right portions. When I try to eat the way I used to, like when I go out, my stomach doesn't let me! I'm like HEY I have the points let me at it! So what I am saying is: IT'S WORKING! Weight Watchers knows what it's doing, and my stomach is getting trained! 

So about those goals I set last time...

I failed. 

I sort have set my self up for failure because they were more like wishes than actual reasonable goals. So I'm going to pick one for this week and work on it. So I am picking:

Go swimming earlier

I do like being the only one in the pool so late at night, plus no one can see me and judge. But it is reeking havoc on my sleeping, which is a problem all in it's self. I also like going with my husband and he doesn't get off until 11pm. Which get us to the gym around 12 or later. I guess I just have to be a little more independent and go right when I get home from work. I also think since I don't have a gym partner I just figure I can go all whenever I want, so I am not accountable to be ON TIME for anything. sigh... So..

I'M WORKING ON IT!

Oh and here is the ugliest picture of me EVAR! from last week. enjoy. 

yuck. you're welcome.

*I am very happy about losing the weight. I am terrified about plateau-ing 

**I know this is the healthiest way, and it is the ideal amount for being on ww. I just want more and that's ok :)

Ode to Peaches! a Haiku

Golden juicy ball

hunger is no match for you;


you are my hero

WHY WEDNESDAY!

I'm going to post a reason why I am losing weight every Wednesday! A weekly reminder to myself to motivate and to inspire! They aren't in any order.

  

Reason Number 1:

SO I DON'T DIE!

My doctor tells me I am in great danger, and losing the weight will help all my vitamin deficiencies, sleeping disorders and all around well being. I am too young to be in this kind of danger and I intend to get my self out! Now I am not about to drop at any second but it's the path that I am on that puts me in the danger zone.

And that was WHY WEDNESDAY!